Valentine's Day, Huh? *stabs stabs stabs*

Eh. I don't really care about Valentine's Day, even when I have a valentine. I do, though, care about the half price chocolate on the 15th. Mmmmm, February 15th. I'd make the obligatory VD joke but I'm not that immature. *whistles*

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Where are my memories? Why are they gone? When will they be back? *sobs*

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*Deep breath*

It has been over 24 hours since I have had a cigarette. *deep breath* Day one. I did it. The problem is that I think "hmm, I want a cigarette. Oh, but it's raining and I'm all cozy in bed. I'll just wait 'til tomorrow" Then I remember. *bites knuckle* *forcibly pully hand from mouth before I gnaw through to bone*

I have to be honest, though. I really only smoked 3-5 cigarettes a day which - if you smoke - isn't all that much. I'm not saying it's good, mind, but hell, even President Bartlett gets two smokes a day and he's the leader of the free television world. So it's not like I'm trying to cold turkey from a pack+ a day or anything, which is good.

But still. No ciggie tomorrow? None? *weeps*

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I have noticed the beginning of a problem with the not smoking as well. That being my "hey! It's been 24 hours since you've had a smoke! Why don't you have pizza for dinner to celebrate!" attitude. I can see this becoming a habit and not a good one. So I have to curb the cravings for junk food as my cig replacement.

And Smidge? That deep breath thing you mentioned? Love it. Also, I have nicotine gum which is a mixed blessing. It works, which is good. But it tastes like a burnt ashtray. Now, I know what you're thinking "kissing a smoker is like kissing an ashtray blah, blah ashy-cakes" but when I say Nicorette tastes like a burnt ashtray I mean literally, it tastes like chewing on charred plastic. It's wretched. So I have been chewing half a piece in conjunction with a piece of trident, and that seems to help.

And I told my friend at work that as an early birthday prezzie, if he sees me smoking he can totally rag on me about it. That's love, people.

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I have not received an e-mail saying my pre-ordered Angel has been sent out. Possibly becase I'm cheap and used the super-saver shipping. Possibly because they suck. The world may never know.

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The Seventh Heaven Musical is tonight. I thought that had already happened and I had totally missed it in my state of ignorant bliss. Alas. Oh well, at least I can actively not watch. Take that, WB!

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I don't even like smoking, itself. It's the act of smoking. The having something to do with my hands and the ritual of bringing the cigarette to my mouth, inhaling, hold a beat, exhale. It's zen. And it's easier to take a ten minute smoking break than a ten minute knitting break. Especially since once you start knitting you never want to stop until you do which is usually longer than ten minutes, at least if you're me.

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I need after work activities. I have knitting and (eventually) karate. I want more. Also, more money.

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I hope your VD doesn't end with VD. Huh. It turns out I am that immature.