Valentine's Day, Huh? *stabs stabs stabs*
Feb. 14th, 2005 06:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
angelchickenEh. I don't really care about Valentine's Day, even when I have a valentine. I do, though, care about the half price chocolate on the 15th. Mmmmm, February 15th. I'd make the obligatory VD joke but I'm not that immature. *whistles*
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Where are my memories? Why are they gone? When will they be back? *sobs*
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*Deep breath*
It has been over 24 hours since I have had a cigarette. *deep breath* Day one. I did it. The problem is that I think "hmm, I want a cigarette. Oh, but it's raining and I'm all cozy in bed. I'll just wait 'til tomorrow" Then I remember. *bites knuckle* *forcibly pully hand from mouth before I gnaw through to bone*
I have to be honest, though. I really only smoked 3-5 cigarettes a day which - if you smoke - isn't all that much. I'm not saying it's good, mind, but hell, even President Bartlett gets two smokes a day and he's the leader of the free television world. So it's not like I'm trying to cold turkey from a pack+ a day or anything, which is good.
But still. No ciggie tomorrow? None? *weeps*
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I have noticed the beginning of a problem with the not smoking as well. That being my "hey! It's been 24 hours since you've had a smoke! Why don't you have pizza for dinner to celebrate!" attitude. I can see this becoming a habit and not a good one. So I have to curb the cravings for junk food as my cig replacement.
And Smidge? That deep breath thing you mentioned? Love it. Also, I have nicotine gum which is a mixed blessing. It works, which is good. But it tastes like a burnt ashtray. Now, I know what you're thinking "kissing a smoker is like kissing an ashtray blah, blah ashy-cakes" but when I say Nicorette tastes like a burnt ashtray I mean literally, it tastes like chewing on charred plastic. It's wretched. So I have been chewing half a piece in conjunction with a piece of trident, and that seems to help.
And I told my friend at work that as an early birthday prezzie, if he sees me smoking he can totally rag on me about it. That's love, people.
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I have not received an e-mail saying my pre-ordered Angel has been sent out. Possibly becase I'm cheap and used the super-saver shipping. Possibly because they suck. The world may never know.
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The Seventh Heaven Musical is tonight. I thought that had already happened and I had totally missed it in my state of ignorant bliss. Alas. Oh well, at least I can actively not watch. Take that, WB!
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I don't even like smoking, itself. It's the act of smoking. The having something to do with my hands and the ritual of bringing the cigarette to my mouth, inhaling, hold a beat, exhale. It's zen. And it's easier to take a ten minute smoking break than a ten minute knitting break. Especially since once you start knitting you never want to stop until you do which is usually longer than ten minutes, at least if you're me.
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I need after work activities. I have knitting and (eventually) karate. I want more. Also, more money.
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I hope your VD doesn't end with VD. Huh. It turns out I am that immature.
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Where are my memories? Why are they gone? When will they be back? *sobs*
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*Deep breath*
It has been over 24 hours since I have had a cigarette. *deep breath* Day one. I did it. The problem is that I think "hmm, I want a cigarette. Oh, but it's raining and I'm all cozy in bed. I'll just wait 'til tomorrow" Then I remember. *bites knuckle* *forcibly pully hand from mouth before I gnaw through to bone*
I have to be honest, though. I really only smoked 3-5 cigarettes a day which - if you smoke - isn't all that much. I'm not saying it's good, mind, but hell, even President Bartlett gets two smokes a day and he's the leader of the free television world. So it's not like I'm trying to cold turkey from a pack+ a day or anything, which is good.
But still. No ciggie tomorrow? None? *weeps*
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I have noticed the beginning of a problem with the not smoking as well. That being my "hey! It's been 24 hours since you've had a smoke! Why don't you have pizza for dinner to celebrate!" attitude. I can see this becoming a habit and not a good one. So I have to curb the cravings for junk food as my cig replacement.
And Smidge? That deep breath thing you mentioned? Love it. Also, I have nicotine gum which is a mixed blessing. It works, which is good. But it tastes like a burnt ashtray. Now, I know what you're thinking "kissing a smoker is like kissing an ashtray blah, blah ashy-cakes" but when I say Nicorette tastes like a burnt ashtray I mean literally, it tastes like chewing on charred plastic. It's wretched. So I have been chewing half a piece in conjunction with a piece of trident, and that seems to help.
And I told my friend at work that as an early birthday prezzie, if he sees me smoking he can totally rag on me about it. That's love, people.
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I have not received an e-mail saying my pre-ordered Angel has been sent out. Possibly becase I'm cheap and used the super-saver shipping. Possibly because they suck. The world may never know.
*
The Seventh Heaven Musical is tonight. I thought that had already happened and I had totally missed it in my state of ignorant bliss. Alas. Oh well, at least I can actively not watch. Take that, WB!
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I don't even like smoking, itself. It's the act of smoking. The having something to do with my hands and the ritual of bringing the cigarette to my mouth, inhaling, hold a beat, exhale. It's zen. And it's easier to take a ten minute smoking break than a ten minute knitting break. Especially since once you start knitting you never want to stop until you do which is usually longer than ten minutes, at least if you're me.
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I need after work activities. I have knitting and (eventually) karate. I want more. Also, more money.
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I hope your VD doesn't end with VD. Huh. It turns out I am that immature.
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Date: 2005-02-14 11:54 pm (UTC)In other news? Have a pizza!
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Date: 2005-02-15 12:18 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-02-15 12:37 am (UTC)I may have to go get me some chocolate that I don't need.
--"hey! It's been 24 hours since you've had a smoke! Why don't you have pizza for dinner to celebrate!" attitude.
Whatever keeps you going. Gain the weight. It can come off, says she who needs to lose weight and sits like a lump whining about it.
--And Smidge? That deep breath thing you mentioned? Love it.
I find it helpful. Kind of like you're inhaling really weak smoke.
--It's the act of smoking
And some people just look fucking hot doing it.
--I hope your VD doesn't end with VD.
Bwahahahah.
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Date: 2005-02-15 01:18 am (UTC)I hope your VD doesn't end with VD.
Oh, ac. You so crazy!
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Date: 2005-02-15 02:14 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2005-02-15 02:29 am (UTC)Yes. Well said. Also, good for you for making it 24 hours. When I was a kid, my non-violent mother, while trying to quit smoking, threw an entire plate of spaghetti at the wall, where it stuck and slid down as she stomped up the stairs to her bedroom. Good times, good times.
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Date: 2005-02-15 03:57 am (UTC)You're lucky that she didn't throw the plate at your or your sister or do you have any other siblings?