I am despondent and my mother is thrilled

[angelchicken]

So, this sucks.

Sucks because I am feeling better, again. Good, even. But I know I'm not and if I push myself then I will just get worse again and be miserable and I don't want that. But I am so bored and so tired (in a lethargic way).

Today I spent six hours at my mom's doing laundry. That seems like a lot of laundry for one person, right? Right. It is a lot of laundry and, in fact, I did very little laundry. One load of darks, washed and dried, one load of whites, washed with bleach, washed without bleach and dried.

AND IT TOOK SIX HOURS!

Because my mother's brand new high efficiency washer/drier is the Slowest. Washer/Drier. Ever.

Seriously, there is some sort of wrinkle in the time (heh) because the driers five minutes is, like, real world twenty minutes.

NOT COOL!

The reason I went over there is because I *am* still prone to sudden serious sleepiness and i wanted to not irritate others if I didn't pick up my clothes in time.

But all that was pretty much for naught because I got home and my whites *still* smelled like bleach so back in the wash they went. Hopefully not for four hours this time.

In my grumpiness and despondence I decided, fuck it! I want real food! So I came home and got a roast beast sammich with a slice of cheese and lettuce and tomato and I got Dorito's which I thought were regular but are in fact stupid Spicey Nacho except I think spicy nacho is regular.

I *really* want them!

But I am afraid to try them.

Bah.

Oh, and the subject line: my mom says she would rather I be despondent then lying in bed unable to move listlessly staring at the wall. Anger, restlessness, depression, those all mean I'm getting better.

So, you know, whooptie doo.


eta: One bright spot. I did get paid my full check today (yay for direct deposit!) I don't know if he just took vacation time or what but right this second I am NOT COMPLAINING. Because I got a lovely reminder call that I forgot to pay a credit card that was due last week (and I am never late on OMGCHILLCITICARD!) so I paid that right on up. Yay! Money!

Comments

[nutmeg3.livejournal.com]

I love your headline, and I hope you continue to feel better by degrees.

[angelchicken.livejournal.com]

Thank you, darling. I hope I feel better, too. And when I told my mom I was despondent you could practically hear the plural exclamation points in her response of "GREAT".

Heh.