This and that . . .
Apr. 21st, 2007 05:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
angelchickenI think I'm done with guys for a while. D (he has been demoted to just D. He doesn't deserve the '+') and I are friends, which is good. Because I was falling into old habits and we just did the whole strained conversation thing and while I am still of a mind where he sucks quite a lot at least I am secure on where we stand. My two biggest fears are being an intrusion or burden and being an afterthought. And I was starting to feel like I was a little bit of both with him and I wasn't happy with that at all and so at least there was conversation *before* it became a resentful situation on either of our parts so friendship can be achieved.
Good.
But still. It hurts. It's a hurting thing and I'm a little bit hurt and I don't like the feeling. I'm not all that happy being me right now, though I'm not feeling any sort of great despair or heartbreak there is still a sting. I like him. I still do. But, you know, whatever.
On the plus side, not dating him anymore means I am less likely to eat crap every weekend which in turn makes me gain weight which in turn sucks*.
So there's that.
Okay, i think I might take a bath and then crawl into bed and read Dresden all night. That sounds lovely. And if I feel like dozing I will.
And maybe tomorrow I'll take out my bike. It's lovely here and I want to take advantage. Also, I want to get a pedicure so I think I'll do that tomorrow, too.
Huh. Sudden realization. Crappy things happen a few days after I get a massage. That's no good. Because the last time I got a massage I got fired four days later and then I got one on Thursday and now the thing with D. Or maybe it's just massages I don't pay full price for. I'm not sure this is something I want to test but if anyone wanted to send me free massages I suppose I could deal. ;)
Okay. Time to do . . . something.
* The exception being tonight because the one time that frozen pizza and ice cream are definitely allowed is when were just kind of dumped. Not a lot of either, like not a whole pie and whole pint, but some. Because tonight I wallow, damn it.
Good.
But still. It hurts. It's a hurting thing and I'm a little bit hurt and I don't like the feeling. I'm not all that happy being me right now, though I'm not feeling any sort of great despair or heartbreak there is still a sting. I like him. I still do. But, you know, whatever.
On the plus side, not dating him anymore means I am less likely to eat crap every weekend which in turn makes me gain weight which in turn sucks*.
So there's that.
Okay, i think I might take a bath and then crawl into bed and read Dresden all night. That sounds lovely. And if I feel like dozing I will.
And maybe tomorrow I'll take out my bike. It's lovely here and I want to take advantage. Also, I want to get a pedicure so I think I'll do that tomorrow, too.
Huh. Sudden realization. Crappy things happen a few days after I get a massage. That's no good. Because the last time I got a massage I got fired four days later and then I got one on Thursday and now the thing with D. Or maybe it's just massages I don't pay full price for. I'm not sure this is something I want to test but if anyone wanted to send me free massages I suppose I could deal. ;)
Okay. Time to do . . . something.
* The exception being tonight because the one time that frozen pizza and ice cream are definitely allowed is when were just kind of dumped. Not a lot of either, like not a whole pie and whole pint, but some. Because tonight I wallow, damn it.
